BoysLikeGirlsLikeJoey !

2012-01-30T02:07:00.004+08:00

Lalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalala
diam.

I just found aikhow's twitter and facebook.
same thing la, only can find but cannot click "follow" and "add friend"
seriously joey got no balls like omg please grow some imaginary ones
want to fall for people then don't dare to do this kinda thing
you seriously loser sia, stupid like bird, ugly like grass
even the grass also more chio

After finding for soooooo long only about like 8 months later
then find the twitter and facebook seriously joey seriously
how can i even think that he don't have twitter & fb
like if jeffery is living under a rock, cannot be aikhow
living in the rock under jeffery's rock right

seriously joey you really i cannot handle your stupidity
but nevermind, his twitter damn cute, the way he tweet
i was supposed to study for cbm luh, then read his tweets
like machiam reading for the test, then now no need study alr
if tuesday's test on info about aikhow, i'll secure an AD bitch

but from the way he tweet uh, joey you can go home
actually technically i'm at home so i cannot go home anymore?
okay nevermind joey neverminddd what are you thinking

very pekchek alr luh, my self esteem level now's probably
-5,989,394,394,393,575,729 gabillion %

okay luh 2:17am time to study for cbm.

but i feel like playing guitar.
sad = play guitar = everybody wake up = joey die
might as well.

tmr's monday. no actually it's today alr.
but bitch it doesn't count until i go to sleep and wake up.
monday's not a good day. because there is a 30% chance of it happening.

cheebs i just realise that there's really nobody for me to love
michael jackson died
martin johnson got gf, ashley tisdale
adam lambert got bf, sauli koskinen
tommyjoeratliff got gf, forgot-her-name
andie chen got gf, melissa yeo
grant mickelson got gf, claire callaway

how luh how. you tell me how.

2012-01-29T22:59:00.002+08:00

And the worst part is before it gets any better,
we're heading for a cliff.

WA JOEY SHUTUP.

i keep thinking thinking and thinking when it's not even fucking necessary cheebong but you always imagine the worst so that when it happens it won't be so scary but then again if you keep thinking and imagining walao weh everything also cannot do this one cannot think that one cannot do shutup shutup shutup don't wanna hear it because it's making my self esteem level damn fucking low and it's already low enough.

it sucks to fall for someone
because to know that you'll never have him,
is the worst feeling you can ever have.

i mean if there comes a break up part,
at least you know that during the togetherness,
you were once genuinely happy.

ok sadness ranted, now you can study cbm.
ignorance is your new best friend
ignorance is your new best friend
ignorance is your new best friend

fuck la i don't want wednesday to come
i will starve myself this time k
because i realized that
cutting = blood = infection = fever = very xinku but cannot die
which is worse than death
want to cut then cut deeper la so hamji for what
best if can cut through the fats and hit the vein
so i can find king of hades faster abit

and in the free fall
i realize that i'm better off when i hit the bottom.

2012-01-27T23:34:00.002+08:00

I'd rather live with broken bones than lay here alone.

I tried. I really tried.
When a trust is broken, it's never easy to get it back.
And today I saw something I probably shouldn't have?
But if it's true, I'm speechless.

I want exams to be over (lol pfft who doesn't)
so i can hurry go clubbing with van bb (i lubb her)
and hang out more with ting and bella

wa ting and bella
i miss you guys so fucking much
i know it's not very long since i saw you guys
but i really miss you guys, can yall be my boyfriends?

it's like everytime when i feel like nothing is real
only you guise keep me sane :')

4 more days to wednesday
I went through something like that last october
and we have to go through it one more time now
i mean its only one more time
how hard can it be right?

can you see the rainbow of sarcasm.

2012-01-24T18:38:00.003+08:00

I realise, I'm better off when I hit the bottom.

Nothing. Just wanna say, I really love my dslr.
Imma take it to the states with me.

It's getting better.

2012-01-22T03:02:00.002+08:00

You and I'll be safe and sound.

I was rewatching unriddle in the afternoon and there was this part
dewei confessed to xiaoman even though he knew she likes someones else
but whatever he said in that scene, is exactly what i wanna tell aik how
like spot on, and it couldn't be any more gpoy than that
i wanted to print screen the whole shit but not a single
uploaded episode 18 online has subtitles
so that's defeating the purpose.

He said:

"Actually I like you. I've always wanted to tell you but haven't got the chance to do it. You don't have to say anything. My point in confessing is not that I want you to accept me, but to just stop myself from being so old-fashioned by liking you secretly. You really don't have to say anything. I know that it is impossible between us, and I totally understand. I'm already contented when I took that bullet for you."

And it fucking broke my heart when xiaoman replied:

"Friends forever?"

But he said everything on my mind.
Every thing.

2012-01-20T00:50:00.002+08:00

Someone, help me
cause the memory convinced itself to tear me apart
and it's gonna succeed before long

this is the memory, this is the curse of having
too much time to think and it's killing me

It hurts so much.
Everytime I think about it, the only thing I feel like doing
is to use something to make it hurt more so that it won't
feel like it's the most painful thing i'm going through rn
the feeling is so fucking overwhelming
even cutting is not that pain

and it hurts because i don't wanna talk to anyone about it
because i don't wanna bother them with such minor things
because to me it can hurt so much, but to them its so small
i mean my friends go through so much more than this

i can't even handle something like that.
i'm seriously beginning to question my existence on this planet.

but everytime i have nothing on my mind,
i'll replay the whole scene, the whole motherfucking scene

why didn't the fever kill me yesterday.
why.

find me a medicine to take away the pain
after all, we're all addicted to something that will take away the pain

2012-01-17T21:29:00.002+08:00

I try not to think of what might happen.

I slept for a long time.
I thought everything will go away.
But it didn't. It got worse, and it hurts,
more than ever.

But for one thing I'm sure of,
I won't be going back to that place that contains
all the memories of what we used to have.
It's bittersweet.

We still live in the same town don't we?
But I don't see you around anymore
I go to all the same places but
there's not even a trace of you

2012-01-16T13:33:00.002+08:00

Do you know you're unlike any other?

Dear Jeffery
I'm at ourspace right now.
I finally saw you just now.
It's been really long.

These 3 months felt like 3 years.
I just lost it when I saw you just now.
To constantly think of you everyday,
is a very tiring thing to do.

I have never felt like that for anyone before.
I don't know what kind of sorcery is this, but you do it.
Every single time.

I really hate myself for not having the courage.
I wish I could be like van. I wish I could be like Gisele.

I believe there's one more chance.
And then we'd go back to the 3 months thing.
I have one more chance.

Please don't walk away,
before I build up my courage.

Please.

2012-01-13T23:09:00.004+08:00

I've been waiting for you ever since you've been gone.

Dear Jeffery
I don't know what I want anymore.
I feel so confused. I'm like thinking of this one,
but then I want that one. But when I think of that one,
I want this one. This shit is making my brain very pain.

Anyway
Went ta town today with these 2 lovelies :)

D, Me, Maddie

I really hate my face. Just saying.
There is something very wrong with it.

But I really had fun! Although it was a short while.
Hopefully next week we can hang a lil longer with o and ting!
I wanna stayover stayover stayover stayover
I miss them so much.

I miss Herpina Chu Tingxun.

Last episode of Code of Honor today.
I'm really sad because now I got nothing to watch.
I'll do a spam tomorrow on my two OTPs when
it comes out on xinmsn so i can printscreen.
Jianfeng & Jiabao
Yazai & Kelu
♥

It's so sad, because you lost my trust.

2012-01-11T22:14:00.005+08:00

She can't see the way your eyes, light up when you smile.

IL class today! Finally.
Aik how aik how aik how aik how aik how aik how.
He sat in front of me! Even his backview is so adorable.
Haha just kidding. But I'm serious. He work pink today!
But he talk v little to me. But he's in a good mood today!
2 more lessons and this module will be over.
I am very sad because no more aik how.

I feel like telling him how I feel,
but I'm not wanting anything out of it,
but I won't send the text,
because I've got no balls to.

And you can't see me wanting you the way you want her
We're invisible, like shadows in the faded light
If you only knew me, we could be a beautiful
miracle, unbelievable, stead' of just invisible.

2012-01-10T21:10:00.004+08:00

X , is the shape I drew through your face in permanent marker.

just like the mark you knew you were makin
who do you think you are?

You used to shine so bright, but I watched all of it fade.
Instead of letting myself in again, I'd rather stay outside

Once bitten, twice shy?
Hahaha I was bitten countless times but never shy.
Stupid girl, I should've known.

I'm out of this game. Go find someone else who can play with you.

ANYWAYYY, LOOK

andie please marry me.

and dear jeffery,
i wish the sky had your lips
and the ocean had your eyes
and the sunset had your face
and i had you.

2012-01-10T00:49:00.002+08:00

Till you come around again I will be doing what I usually do,
thinking about you

dear jeffery. tmr is the i-dont-know-which tuesday already.
ever since i saw your face. well it's getting rully frustrating.
were you really meant to enter my life,
and leave just like that?

wow.

but then again
if i meant something to you, you wouldn't have left
so i don't know what the actual fuck i'm holding onto right now.

| but I'd still get lost when I think about your smile |

2012-01-08T01:27:00.005+08:00

Please don't walk away and please tell me you'll stay.

Friends appreciation post.
Just wanna say, that I love these people so much.

Tingxun and Maddie!

Ting ting (herp), my bff. She's super chio, super tall, super fierce (so don't fuck with her) super nice, super lazy, super cool, super fun to bully, super super super best best friend ever you can find. She will ALWAYS be there like even if i say her top look like ah beng. Hahaha fuck she's gonna kill me. I love you ting! Only you give me the strength to push ivy down and show her that i will be rising from the ground like a skyscraper. HAHAHA okay don't always sleep so early k. And she will always be the reason why I will "reblog if you're the uglier friend". Teehee.

Maddie (bella) this one omygod she is one motherfucking funny bella. I enjoy disgusting her with the sex scenes of breaking dawn. She's like .. a motherly friend. Everytime I'm sad, she'll be a counsellor. And when I'm angry, she'll read my bullshit. And when I'm happy, she'll not give a fuck because usually when I'm happy it's over mediacorp artistes and she cannot care less. and forever making fun of mediacorp. She's a person (and ting also) that will walk away if I start screaming in public because I see my husbands in shopping centres eg. on tv or posters. She's the reason why i have abs because her jokes are so mothercheebong funny. I love you maddie. Hahaha not really actually. Hahaha no la kidding. Hahaha but really no. But hahaha okay I really love you.

Ophe and Darrylin!

Ophelia. This one. Forever so suku. She's lika pillar of our group. Like without her, our group will kua into dust. And become like idk what. She likes to talk to herself. I feel very homey when I see her. Because she makes me feel like, idk how to explain this feeling. I like her house. Because the sofa very big. And her house got alot of biscuit to eat. And she always send letters one. Like ting ting. Ophe, I just wanna say, be strong okay? Fuck those people in your life who treat you like shit. No don't fuck them. Later accidentally pregnant then not good. hahaha what the hell am i talking. I will bring you and ju go clubbing soon ok. Maddie will kill me but nevermind. We drag her to the club also. I love you so much.

Darrylin HAHAHA sorry bout the picture but you look so cute. This one always make me laugh also forever thinking about how her neighbour eat kiwi and how she fell asleep during her job and accidentally drop her head then woke up and then she became wide awake. Always read your tweets and laugh like monkey on the bus. Although we don't spend much time together, which i hope we will in 2012, i just wanna say thank you for being in my life. And we should go for sushi buffet soon. But i'll probably choke on my food when you put the tofu and spit it out HAHAHA okay i love you!

Juliana, mua and ting!

Ju. This one. forever so innocent. don't so gullible k! although it's nice to bully you. and hide your bag in secondary school. and i actually wanted to kill you because you saw andie chen but then i realise if you die, i will lose one person to bully HAHA kidding no la next time see andie hurry put him inside gunnysack and bring to gramophone ok. you are forever so inspiring and saying your own jokes and then laughing by yourself but that's your cuteness ok. I love you so much too. and you're the only one who won't ever criticise my mediacorp idols. thank you ju. HAHA

Ah ping, Gisele, mua and Crystal!

Crystal! this girl forever trying to irritate me. always succeed. teehee but crystal thank you so much for bringing gongcha down that day! like seriously until now i still cannot forget. thank you for always being there when i nag to you about jeffery. like why am i so stupid. aye, but thank you for always going out with me whether im happy sad or bored. like you're my best shopping partner honestly! be strong okay? I love you!

AH PING wa this one, coolest friend. and i like to annoy her with my not funny jokes. and you can only catch her in 3 scenarios. eating, sleeping and playing bball. never really seen her play bbal, but i have seen her like sleeping and eating multiple times. she can eat alot. like really alot. i thought i eat alot. and then i met ah ping. she's like, jeffery. eat like panda, but skinny like the bamboo pole. ah ping, you're like so cool idk how to say already. but thank you for being in my life. HAHA i love you!

Crystal and my bb van!

VAN BB. THIS ONE. so much to say. where do i begin. forever wanna piss me off also. you make me speechless, speechless, thats how you make me feel. HAHAHA DON'T ALWAYS SAY YOU FAT OKAY. please luh if you fat then i really can go botanic gardens and be a tree. you're beautiful and all those cheebye kanina bastards can fuck their own balls just fuck care them okay? you're always there to do homework with me and study with me and oh ya fuck june tan also and you're also a reason why i must "reblog if you're the uglier friend" like seriously no actually i reblog that no matter who i'm with HAHAHA but seriously although you also like to say your own jokes and laugh but nevermind i will laugh with you! and thank you for not running away when i scream at the bus stop because i saw andie chen on the advertisement. HAHA that is called true friend. jhfaslkj i love you okay bb? aiya actually no need to type this you also know how much i love you lor. teehee.

Joline, me and Gisele!

Gisele omygod this one. where do i start. forever texting the bb. then ignore me when the bb call her. then when skype with her, she will put my call on hold when the bb call in. then sometimes i wait too long she still can tell me "wait ah" but i can say, without her, i really dk what the fuck i will be wearing in poly now. still t shirt shorts and flip flop. seriously. another reason why i will constantly "reblog if you're the uglier friend". but i enjoy breaking the law with you, and i admire how you can always spend money no need to think one. transport fare also like free. and always waiting for my bus to come before boarding her bus. always putting us before herself. but her bf before us. HAHAHA kidding. kidding luh. i love you gisele! because you also very fun to bully. although i love you, you still have to sit alone during lunch k :)

Joline wa this one. always finding ways to tickle me. my neck!! forever. when i first saw you walao i rmb, i thought you hate me sia. like you will think "what is this piece of fat ugly bitch" but you never HAHA and still can friend me, honoured much. although you always annoy me, but teehee i really super honoured to be your friend. and to think that we were from the same pri sch. dwfjksdfskjhfd i love you okay!

Michelle!

this one. also like to annoy me. and eh i miss 151/154 bus rides with you. i think i shifting back soon. then we can continue to take bus alr. teehee. you're like the friend who's always constantly trying to lose weight when you're already so skinny and i sit here and i keep eating. gurl you have to have more confidence in yourself okay! you know what i mean. thank you for being in my life. eat more okay. you very skinny already. really. teehee. I love you!

and mini ng omg.

this one. last time i saw her was during deepavali. really miss her alot. idk what happened we were supposed to meet up. i've done an appreciation post on her before which i cried while writing HAHA but she's a person that i will never forget in my entire life, unless i get hit by a car or smth and lost my memory. she's like a twin. and to know that i'll never find another. i really love you mini! thank you for being in my life. i'll always treasure and go back to 2007-2009. i miss you alot alot.

The existence of these people makes my life so good.
They're the only reason why I would continue living other than my family.
Thank you for everything in 2011.
I love yall so much :)

And if I were to do an appreciation post with picts of my idols,
this blog post will never ever end. So let's just do names shall we.

MICHAEL JACKSON
MARTIN JOHNSON
ADAM LAMBERT
TOMMYJOE RATLIFF
GRANT MICKELSON
ANDIE CHEN
THOMAS ONG
RUI EN
TAYLOR SWIFT
ALL TIME LOW

and every other hot guy out there whom
my ovaries actually exploded because of.

Love, jojoballs.

2012-01-06T04:47:00.005+08:00

Ma Yongjie and Natalie Appreciation Post 2k12

Since 10pm just now, it's 448am now,
I've finished watching episode 13-22.
Zai right. But tt's not the point.

This is the point.

and i will go down with this ship syudysudydsuduffffff
love her character in this show, and ma yongjie jkdjfdfd
idk natalie is so fuckin rich but cool and carries herself so well
and the fact that she can fall for yongjie because he's innocent
everytime she asks him to play carom my heart cannot take it
and their almost kiss scene although never kiss but so mother sweet

long live .

2012-01-01T23:47:00.003+08:00

I'm still crazy for you, even though it's been so long.

Happy new year!
Well I did enjoyed my countdown (:
It would've been better if D came.
Nevertheless, I still had so much fun.

Rushed down from work, to vivo and and counted and
they came to my house! Did lots of stuff manicure clubbing talk etc
Honestly, they're the only people who can bring a "club" to me.
Didn't sleep til like 6/7 in the morning! Skipped work.
Pissed ivy off I think, but hey look!

New year's resolution:
To be more insensitive to what people feel and not care anymore.

In simple words,
TO NOT GIVE A SINGLE FUCK.

Tit for tat bruh.
You don't wanna let me go early, I don't help you count money.
You don't let me work at cathay, I don't even go to work.
And I honestly cannot give a single fuck,
plus its new year.

WHO THE FUCK GOES TO GRAMOPHONE TO BUY CDs ON NEW YEAR

Anyway, just wanna say I really really really love these people
Tingxun, Ophelia, Julianna, Madeliene and Darrylin
You guise are the best I'm having and I've ever had
Been hanging out so often with yall, dont even feel like gg back to school
Just wish we can all buy plane tickets and fly off and live together !

You guise are the best thing, that's ever been mine ♥

2011-12-30T00:14:00.004+08:00

Say goodnight, our first goodbye
I've only got forever and forever is fine

but don't take your time, cause I can't hold out much longer

JEFFERY.
I'm tired of holding on. My energy's running low.
Not that it means anything to you, but just a heads up.

It's the holidays but I'm tired. Of all the bullshit.
There's not a time where everything's okay for once.
Every time something is solved, another will fuck up.
And Idk if I've matured, or everyone around me is childish?
Like there's no problem, but they gotta fuck it up, just gotta do it.
If there's no problem with your life, then don't fuck someone's up.
If there are already problems with your life, then solve them!
Instead of fucking up something that isn't necessary.

WIPE IT ALL AWAY
and cross my fingers that again, people dont' fuck shit on the 31st,
HOPE THAT I WILL ENJOY WITH MA LOVELIES

And I hope I get to see this badass.
Andie, you do things to me, do you know?

2011-12-28T00:35:00.004+08:00

You are the best thing that will never be mine.

Dear Jeffery, last 5 days before school reopens.
I hope I don't have to wait for another three weeks.
Because these three weeks has been kind of a nightmare.

Next 3 days my parents are going overseas.
Sad that van bb is not in singapore, otherwise we'd go clubbing.
Which equals to i will be alone the next 3 days.
ah ah-ah ah-ah ~

Working on 31st. and the 1st. Swear Ivy's bian tai.
Like who the hell will put an employee to work after countdown.
I mean, she don't wanna count, other people wanna countdown can.
But it's double pay so ... let's just work.

Kinda bummed that I can't go to vivo's countdown to see andie.
He's like friggin cute fkjghfdskjghkfd and since rui en is at tiong bahru,
we go tiong bahru count lor. bo pian. haven't seen her for so long.
Btw, andie replied my tweet! Like even though it's 4 words,
but he's sooooooooo nice :)

No but seriously, isn't he damn cute.
I finished reading like 37 pages of his blog.
He has so many blogs, but I finished reading all.
Zai right. teehee.

Skyping with gisele right now
she never fails to make my day ;)

2011-12-27T01:46:00.002+08:00

CAN WE ALL JUST
TAKE SOME TIME TO APPRECIATE ANDIE'S HAIR

andie please father my child
and be my edward you beautiful gorgeous being

2011-12-22T23:37:00.006+08:00

All that I know is I don't know how to be something you miss.

Day 12 of 3 weeks.

Dear Jeffery
I dreamt of you last night, and I was so afraid
I dreamt that I invited you and aikhow to my bday party
But you didn't show up. Once again, I called you
but this time you didn't even pick up.

I'm just so afraid that you're fading.
Or these dreams are telling me something, idk
but it scares me to know that you hate me so much in my dreams

Did my scm project today, and I'm so tired.
Out of 5 days, I only get 1 day off and I used it to do my project
Really fucking tired, I need a good sleep.
But I cannot because I have to log on
and watch code of honour on xinmsn
Hahahahaha

Because I think Andie Chen is fucking good looking.

He's like photoshopped.
And he has this sex face.
How do I say it in an appropriate way?

"You me bed now"

2011-12-21T01:11:00.002+08:00

If I had only felt how it feels to be yours
I would have known what I've been living for all along

Day 10 of 3 weeks.

Dear Jeffery.
Was freakin busy the past few days with work.
Literally a cycle of wakeup-gotowork-gohome-sleep.
But it didn't stop me from thinking of you.

Was supposed to do project with IL group today,
which means seeing aik how but then ivy had to put me on duty.
So I went to work while crystal settled everything,
and she took pictures of aikhow for me!
Like secretly. Hahaha I luv this gurl.

I cried listening to the song turning page by sleeping at last.
If only the guy that I love sings that song while proposing to me.
Hahaha i'm seriously considering it for my wedding,
when I walk down the aisle.

Can't wait for the weekend.
I need to hang with ting mad ophe ju and d soon.

And hopefully, with you?

2011-12-16T00:01:00.004+08:00

Someone, sing this love sick melody.

Day 5 of 3 weeks.

Dear Jeffrey.
Yesterday was a super huge disappointment.
The second part of the part was boring, and squeezy.
Didn't get drunk, didn't get to see you.

The thought of two more weeks and two days, sucks.
And even worse, I might even have to wait even longer.
But I will.

But is it sad that I don't get to end the year with you?

Just asking.
Is smoking, piercing, tattooing, drinking and clubbing really bad?
Or are they just being stereotyped? I know as in the same old
"will die earlier" shit but that's not what I'm talking about.

If you smoke, pierce, tattoo, drink and club,
it doesn't necessarily make you a bad person does it?
It has the same logic as gay marriage.
Wtf is wrong with doing smth that
makes you happy?

Maybe they just don't understand.
If they classify people who do all those as "bad people",
then I would classify them as "fucking narrow minded people".
Fair enough?

Hahahahahahaha, just stating my opinions.

That's me and you :)

2011-12-13T00:27:00.003+08:00

Do you see, you're all I need?

Day 1 of 3 weeks.

Dear Jeffrey.
How're you doing?
Done my last common test paper today!
I tried my best, I can proudly say.
Hope you did okay too.

Find me something to do in these 3 weeks.
Something that takes away the pain,
either make it completely gone,
or make it even painful.

I'm holding on.

2011-12-10T21:35:00.003+08:00

When I fall in love, with you.

Dear Jeffrey.
I just finished watching a drama I bought.
It made me think, alot.
About you.

The girl in the show, fell in love with the guy.
The guy in the show, fell in love with the girl.
They were together, but for a short time.
They separated because fate stepped in.
But they both knew that they will meet again.
They both waited, and in the end they did.

She said one line in the show.
"When something is around, we don't realise its importance.
Only when its gone, we know who we truly love and miss."

She waited, and fate brought them back.
So I just wanna say, I'll continue to wait.
I choose not to believe that this has ended,
because it has barely begun.

How long will I be waiting to be with you again?
I'm gonna tell you that I love you in the best way that I can
I can't take a day without you here
You're the light that makes my darkness disappear

I'm begging you please.

2011-12-08T00:38:00.002+08:00

Our favourite place we used to go.

Dear Jeffrey.
I finished two tests this week (:
Are you still having your commontests?
I hope you're doing good, you smarty pants.

IL group meetup with the teacher today!
I saw aik how ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha.
He's seriously so cute when he stares at me.
Is it mean if I told you that today when he was xplaining,
I kept saying I don't understand just so he can continue xplaining,
because when he xplains, he stares right into your eyes,
and they never shift until he finishes his xplanation?
And when he laughs, and when he's confused,
he's just like you.

Show up tomorrow will you?
Prove to me that you stand at a higher ground in my heart.
All I need is one more chance,
will you give it to me?

Maybe if you show up tomorrow,
your name would appear more on my blog,
than my hand. Please.
I'm begging you.

2011-12-04T01:53:00.002+08:00

All that I know is I don't know,
how to be something you miss.

Dear Jeffrey.
I thought of you a little more than usual today.
And there was a little more blood that usual today.
But I don't feel a thing.

Is it because I'm immune to it already?
But the pain and the scar is the only reminder that you were real,
that you were once in my life, that i was once truly happy.

I’m going right back to the time that stood still
When you talked to me and I stared back at you
Bet you didn’t know I wasn’t listnin to you
Cause that’s when I fell for you
that’s when I fell for you

I’m going right back to the time that stood still
When you walked me home and we were alone
You said you can’t wait til we meet again
That’s when i fell deep for you
that’s when i fell deep for you

Wish I had said the thoughts in my head
That you never left my heart since we first met
The way that you laugh, the words that you speak
Don’t you know that it makes me so weak?
That’s when I should’ve said
But I left the words unsaid instead

I remember the day when you walked to me
Said that’s the last day of each other we’ll see
I looked so calm, but I cross my heart
Everything in me was falling apart
Can we go back to the start
Can we go back to the start

Wish I had said the thoughts in my head
That you never left my heart since we first met
The way that you laugh, the words that you speak
Don’t you know that it makes me so weak?
That’s when I should’ve said
But I left the words unsaid instead

Now I’m regretting the words that I kept in
I should’ve told you bout the feelings within
Now I’m wishing on every falling star
For that moment to re-begin

Wish I had said the thoughts in my head
Bout what my heart felt since we first met

Now I will tell you the thoughts that I had
That you never left my heart since we first met
The way that you laugh, the words that you speak
Don’t you know that it makes me so weak?
I shouldn’t have been so afraid
You’d probably be here now instead

Wrote that song for you.
Will you come around to hear it?

2011-12-02T00:27:00.006+08:00

My world's hanging by three words that I can't bear to say

Dear Jeffrey.
Today, I thought alot about you.
I was really hoping you'd appear during lunch.
Well, tmr's the last day of the week!
One last chance, for the week.

4th day, of drawing your name into my hand.
It hurt a little more than usual today :|

Today, me and the gurls went to cold stone 'gain!

The only place that can make me happy for a while,
all because of you.

Do you miss the way the world was spinning for us?
Do you hurt the way that I do?
After all this time you leave me broken
This song is every word I left unspoken
When you hear this, I'm hoping that you think of us

2011-12-01T01:23:00.004+08:00

I think you should know, I like the way you move
the things you do, and the feeling that I get inside,
it keeps me up all night. So would you please stay?

Dear jeffrey.
I carved your name into my hand.
The fact that I carved it in, shows reminds me that you're real.
I will continue to do it until you show up in my life again.
I just accidentally slit my finger skin open though.
Hahaha i didn't know the other penknife
was so freakin sharp.

So many things happening in my life now.
Few are good, most are bad.
So can you appear,
to add to the good?

Van bb says we're going clubbing on the 14.
Can't wait til the end of common tests.
You're having common tests too right?
I hope you're doing fine, and please
have more confidence in yourself.
You can do it :)

Til then,
I'll be thinking of you.

2011-11-29T22:41:00.003+08:00

I have died everyday waiting for you.

ALL I WANT TO SAY IS,
I LOVE VANESSA YU MEI LOO.
Because she is my bb and I love her :)

Dear jeffrey.
God knows where you went and what are you doing right now.
All I know is that I haven't seen you for the longest time.
I just guess I'm tired of waiting. It's only a month,
but it feels like a thousand years have passed.

I was feeling so sad, and I'm glad gisele was there.
She's the sweetest thing ever I cross my heart.
We went to cold stone and we ate ice cream today.
If we meet again, we'll go together okay?

I will continue to wait, but i hope you don't forget me
And not a day goes by where I don't think of you

2011-11-20T01:24:00.003+08:00

The way that you laugh, the words that you speak,
don't you know that it makes me so weak?

Dear Jeffrey.
Twenty days since I last saw you.
I was at phuture yesterday, and I was high.
I feel really bad, because I made use of somebody,
because I thought he was you. The things that I do,
because of how much I miss you, it's not even funny.
I feel so bad towards him, and you suck okay really.
You said, you don't like clubbing and it's dangerous.
So if that's all it takes for you to come back and
remind me not to go, I'll club til the day you appear.
You said, you don't like smoking because it's bad.
So again if that's all it takes just for me to see you,
I can start smoking until you appear and tell me
that you don't want to see me smoke.
Anything, anything even if I have to cut myself.

How long more am I gonna wait til' I see you?
Until I forget you?

I don't want it to become a stage where we both have to act
like as if we don't know/are awkward to meet each other.
Work tomorrow. Another long and torturous day.
Just so because you're not there.

but no matter how far
or where you may be
i just close my eyes
and you're in my dreams

2011-11-14T23:35:00.002+08:00

Dear Jeffrey,

it's been 14 days since I last saw you.
I miss when you smile that beautiful smile
and every little inch in me will scream your name :3

Work was a lil rough on sunday, but ivy was good.
At lunch, I held your card with me while I eat.
Silly huh?

I'm still looking forward to the day when you come back.
When you sit by my side and tell me about your life,
about how you wanna be a gangster in hong kong,
how you don't wanna be like bob in the future,
how you ask girls out on the bus in the past,
how I'm the only one you wanna talk to.

I look forward to the day where you come back,
and cover my duties because you're afraid I'd tire myself out,
buy dinner for me because I haven't eaten anything the whole day,
call me along to throw rubbish with you just so we can waste time,
share the one and only pathetic price tag sticker device,
wait for me even though it's past 10 just to walk me out,
and walk with me to the bus stop side by side.

If not eating for one day can bring you back just to buy dinner for me,
I'd gladly starve myself. So if I starve myself, will you come back?

Come back come back come back to me like
you would you would if this was a movie.
Because if this was a movie,
you'd be here by now.

2011-11-09T22:15:00.002+08:00

You look so beautiful today.

Today is another beautiful aik how day. Troll.
He gave me a miss call at 1:31 and i saw it at 1:33.
I kept saying sorry, cause it was a double miss call.
He was like "No worries, I'm coming now." after 10 mins.
:3

And then when he came I was like, god my prince charming
and he sat down and then i suddenly realise why he took 10 mins to reply
he went to smoke! and i swear and cross my heart that his breath,
was so fucking smexy it was making me dizzy as in seriously.
I could smell the smoke in his breath, and it was delicious.
I rmb at one point he turned away to cough, and i was like
damn why you turn away! I would gladly take it all in.

I sound crazy but, you won't understand til your prince charming smokes.
And then when he asked me questions, I felt like i was dizzy again.
His eyes his eyes his eyes his eyes his eyes his eyes his eyes
If I could pause that moment there and capture it.

And then there was one point when i was colouring smth on the paper
and then i can sort of feel like he was staring? so i turned and look
and he was really staring and i think we stared for 2 seconds
which actually felt like an eternity don't ask me why
i think if he actually looked closer, he can see that
my pupils are dilating every milisecond.

And when he laughs, it's like, motherfucker
how do i explain how does it feel like it's unexplainable
and then he had a phone call halfway and idk if it's his gf
i wanted to ask him "who, your gf ah" but that sounds so personal
and then i was waiting to hear if there was any "love you bye" at the end
but i couldnt hear cause he is softspoken but fucking adorbs like that
and then i asked him "you in a rush to go anywhere after this?"
and he was like "uhhh, CCA" and we continued the convo
but i wasnt absorbing anything but probably drooling
and then suddenly he was like "i think your phone ringing"
and i picked it up and i tried to make it sound like i had a bf?
it was actually just van but i picked up the phone and said "hi darling!"
and then after awhile more he just said "okay see you in 2 weeks!"
and i was heartbroken that he had to emphasize ont he 2 weeks
and then he said bye and i was like bye and i forgot to add in "love you"

You know those moments where you sit in a bus and start imagining?
I was thinking, maybe if he was a clubber, i will definitely
absolutely make out with him in the club when he's high.
and i pray that he smokes right before we enter.

I wanna cuddle with him omg :3

2011-11-09T00:32:00.002+08:00

Let me see you work it out like a stripper on a pole.

All that I can say is,
I have a feeling I'm gonna be addicted to clubbing.
My virgin experience at a club was interesting and scary,
but I will definitely not stop going to a club,
and I'm dead set on butter fact next week.

;)

2011-11-05T00:17:00.003+08:00

Every teardrop is a waterfall.

Can I just.
Coldplay's Mylo Xyloto is amazing.

Today, I didn't see jeff in school.
I was trying to look for him but he didn't appear.
I guess this is when you're supposed to say, "Don't expect it."

Skip the bullshit. I had work today. It was hard.
You know when they say it's not the part where you're leavin,
but the part where you run through my mind with memories,
that hurts the most?

I wish I could tell you how much you mean to me.
And as usual, I want to know how much I mean to you.

So if we ever meet again,
can you smile me my favorite smile,
just so my heart can heal a little better?

"But I got tired of waiting, wondering if you were ever comin around.
My faith in you was fading, when I met you on the outskirts of town,
and I said, romeo save me I've been feeling so alone.
I keep waiting for you but you never come."

I"ll wait for the day when I can finish that line.
Til then, I'm missing you like this is such sweet sorrow.

2011-11-02T22:19:00.002+08:00

But I promise I will see you again.

Today's aik how day! Finally officially talk to him after 2 weeks.
He reached class early, and all he needed to do was just stand there.
He wore pink :3 But I'm so freakin afraid of him. He looks so fierce.
But he looks sleepy too. Hahahaha. I wanna talk to him, but I
feel like he hates me idk why? And I keep laughing today,
I think he felt annoyed? But how! I laugh because of him.
When he looked into my eyes, I can't stare into his for
> 5 secs. I literally had to pretend I had a funny text
so that I can laugh w/o him knowing.

And he gave me a shock when he asked, "How you know my surname?"
I swear I blanked out for a moment, and then said, "Your msn."
How can I have a crush on you and not know your surname
aikhow ah aikhow, y u so silly. kjhfkdfhgskdhkdfjghdlk
And when he said "feed the pigs" i laughed
i think he thought i was laughing at his idea
but i wasn't! i laughed because the way
he said pigs is so cute. Hahahahaha.
and he didn't say bye today, again
☹

On a side note,
Jeff, where are you.
And then I wonder, do you think of me, like I think of you?

I smile because I think of you, and I blush.

2011-11-02T00:02:00.005+08:00

I need a little more luck than a little bit
Cause everytime I get stuck, the words won't fit

Today was sorta a twin attack.
When we were walking over to munch today,
I had a hunch that I would see him eating there.
But he wasn't. So sad joey was sad. But then.
When we were walking out, he appeared!
And he looked so blur! And I waved and
he said "eh hii we meet again!!"
and smiled my fave smile.

And then on the way home again, I thought I could see him at atrium.
But I didn't. So sad joey became sad again, and then! He appeared!
At the bus stop! I used my laptop to brush against his shoulder.
He turned around with the blur look AGAIN and slowly,
he smiled! It went like:

Jeff: Eh?? Hiiiiiii! (and he smiled my favourite smile again)
Joey: Wahh hiiiii! Are you going home now?
Jeff: Yeah lor.
Joey: What bus! (i alr knew it was 52 given i know where he's staying)
Jeff: 52! Wa I very tired leh. Even worse than gramophone sia!
Joey: HAHAHA gramophone only need to sleeve CDs right!
Jeff: Yeah la! You going opposite to take bus ah?
Joey: Yeah lor.
Jeff: What bus?
Joey: 61. Harbourfront remember?
Jeff: OH YEAHHH SENTOSA RIGHT!!

And then he smiled my favourite smile again.
I swear for 5 secs, we both stared at each other, but did not say a word.
It was like we had smth to say, but we just don't dare to voice it.
And at that point of time my head kept resounding the words,
JOEY ASK HIM OUT FOR LUNCH.
And the next thing I knew, I said,
"Okay la, see you around! Bye bye!"
and he was like "Okay see you!"
and I saw my favourite smile one last time.

I hate myself. Why didn't I ask. It was as simple as
eh when you free, we go lunch tgt ah, so long never talk alr!
but I couldn't do it.

But I'm glad he's still willing to smile me my favourite smile.
Until then, my thoughts will echo your name until I see you again.

2011-10-31T23:25:00.002+08:00

Believe it's not that easy to say goodbye,
cause everything in me wants you back in my life.
Can't let you go.

Today I saw Jeff. It was bittersweet.
Bitter because I was hoping that we could talk longer.
Sweet because we finally met after 3 weeks.
My happiness was so hard to contain.

It's like when I see your face, I have so many flashbacks.
I miss the times when we talk, when we laughed, when we ate,
when you told me secrets, when you were still there in my life.
I'm just hoping that maybe we could go a little further than this?

I tried so hard to forget you, because it doesn't look possible.
I tried forcing my mind to believe that believing in aik how was better.
Not that I don't like him at all and I'm just deceiving myself,
God knows how much I like aik how.
But he knows I want you too.
Do you understand?

When I saw your face, I don't deny that the world stopped turning.
But I can see from your face that you had things to tell me too.
When you smiled, it was like nothing else in this world mattered.
How I wish time could stand still right there and we could go on and on.

So I guess I'll be thinking of you until we meet again.

Everytime I look at you, I can hardly say a thing
My head starts to spin and it hits me then, I love you
Everytime you look at me, I could go crazy but I don't say it
But I won't cause I'd rather be alone than completely lose you
And all I really wanna do is be next to you
All I wanna do is tell you that I need you
And I could tell you now but nevermind.

2011-10-28T00:27:00.004+08:00

I watch you talk, but you didn't notice.

Second time I saw aik how this week. True beauty.
Flipped in class when he talked to me online.
So today, under much peer pressure,
I talked to him :D

Been thinking, what will happen if I actually told him?
Well, it's not even a big thing, I'm not like forcing him or anything.
Just wanna let him know that someone out there likes him,
and that he has such a sweet smile and genuine heart.

But there's a possibility that our whole project will flop.

2011-10-23T01:29:00.007+08:00

The way you look, the way you laugh,
the way you look when you walk by,
there ain't nothin about you
that don't do something to me.

Right now, I'm

attending lessons
attending driving lessons
attending work

Thus, I feel like an accomplished person.

Saw aik how in school yesterday.
He looked so beautiful, just walking by.
And when I plucked up my courage to talk to him,
he's not online. (thumbs up)

-

Printscreened 150 from The Seventh Day
I have never cried so much while watching a hk drama
To cry almost continuously for 2 episodes out of 20 is bad enough

Because yan had to break up with wing after going through so much together and to only find out she had inherited her mom's disease LFS which is smth like you're gonna get cancers one after another and you will never be cured. And then she had to do so many things to try to break wing's heart and he became so depressed and those scenes omygod i cried so much for ep 16 and 17 and during ep 18, when yan decides not to go for the operation cause she'll never be cured, her dad goes to wing to tell him all about her illness, because only he can convince yan. And I was like jfhsijdhf finally !! and in the end, yan kept crying and i cried with her, and then she still acted hard-hearted and told him, she'll go for the operation, but after that he cannot find/look for/see her anymore. and when he operation was successful, it was so sad that he cannot go in to look at her. and so then one of wing's best friend went to yan and tell her to stop being a bitch because wing is slowly becoming suicidal without yan in his life. and so she decides to go find him and try to persuade him to get back on his feet. but then because ah wing is so freaking hot and sexy it's like when you see him you wanna just drag him to the bed and break it tgt hdgkjfah kidding. no because wing persuaded her, that he cannot live w/o her, and even though life may be tough with her, because of the cancers, he dont mind, as long as he gets to spend every minute with her wts so freaking sweet and i was sobbing and she finally caves in and they're tgt again. so then they got married and had a baby but while she was carrying the baby she had another tumour and the doct asked her to remove the baby, but she refused cause she wants to at least give a child to accompany wing when she's gone. so she fights through it, but her speech was affected. and then she decides to go for another operation and at this part i was like fuck. and she survived it. but 5 years later she had another tumour. she left ah wing and the daughter 6 months after that. the end. im about to start crying after typing this shit.

and if you were nice enough to read everything, have these caps :)

they're both such beautiful people.
and I will go down with this ship.

2011-10-20T00:02:00.003+08:00

I just wanna know what's on your mind.

Today, aik how texted me.
I have never flipped so hard over a text.

2011-10-12T23:54:00.004+08:00

cause no summer lasts forever, so let's blame it on september

and here's it
I can't even begin to explain what my heart has been doing
because of you, let alone fathom the idea of you leaving my
life on friday. I know what will happen, I see it coming, but
and the worst part is to know that you still can't deal with
it although you have been through it a million times. I can
only hope that you will remember me for as long as you can.
Do you know what you do to me when you talk to me,when
you walk over and talk to me, when you laugh at your own
jokes, when you tell me you have so many things to tell me
but work is ending soon? Do you know that everytime you
walk past me, my heart skips a beat, and it's begging so hard
that you stop and start talking to me like you always do every
night? Do you know how many glances I stole just to see if
you're looking at me too? Do you know how fast my heart
jumps when you told me you remember what I like to drink?
And everytime when you wanna go out for a break, you'd
tell me? And then come back and ask me to go for a break?

Do you know how much I wanna tell you that I like you,
but I'm afraid because I know it won't work out because
of how unattractive I am?

I feel like my life's a joke, because everytime I feel
so attached to someone, s/he will be taken away.

i wrote a song about you.
Maybe if you listened to it, you might probably understand.

2011-10-09T21:03:00.004+08:00

You might think that I don't look,

But deep inside the corner of my mind I'm attached to you.

It's really lonely and boring without you.

You might not feel the same, but I need you.

I don't know if this is gonna last for long or short,

But I know that this feeling is killing me.

I just wish that you wouldn't leave so soon,

Because if I can't take a day without you,

How am I gonna last forever?

And I pray, as I wait to see you again.

He talks to me, I laugh cause it's just so funny.

And I can't even see anyone when he's with me.

2011-10-08T02:49:00.002+08:00

My thoughts will echo your name
until I see you again.

This must be infatuation. It must be.
I don't know if I'm falling for you, or your actions.
When you walk over to me and talk to me.
When you tell me jokes to make me happy.
when you cover my duties so that I can go for break.
When you said "don't come back in less than 20 mins."

The truth is, when you walk over, my heart flutters.
The truth is, when you're so sincere, my head spins.
The truth is, when you smile, i cant help but smile too.

When I couldn't find you after 11, I thought you went home w/o me.
I was honestly sad. And then I checked your punch card and realised
you hadn't clock out yet. I looked calm but my heart was spinning.
When you laugh at me when I told you I didn't actually knew the
difference between indonesia and india, when you laughed so hard.
When I asked you "so are you working tomorrow?" when obviously
i checked your roster long time ago and i know you're working and you
answer "yup. you are too right? i checked your roster."

God save me.
Tell me this is infatuation.
I still have an aik how to return to on wednesdays.

2011-10-04T00:06:00.003+08:00

Even when the sun falls, I hope we don't lose it all.

First day of work today. T'was good!
It was a little freaky as usual, but it became better.
Quite slack, and I don't think I will be learning to do cashier soon,
so no pressure. And the people there are super niceeeeeeeee.

I'm very confused rn.
My head hurts but I don't know if I should tumblr, sleep or watch tv.
Sleep, so that the headache will be gone.
Tumblr cause, there's no reason.
Tv cause I like the show.
#firstworldproblems

All time low in 3 days with ting :)
I'm so excited I feel like shitting.

& 2 weeks til I see you again.
I wish autumn existed, so I can take long walks with you.
Til then.

2011-09-26T23:54:00.002+08:00

I swear I'll be with you someday.

Start Rant.

I'm so very pissed that my hair is not red.
That salon person must've discussed it with my mom and plotted smth like agreeing to let me colour my hair red but actually it is a magical dye that after 1 month the colour goes back to brown. What sorcery is this nevermind I will go back to school with red hair I swear. Be it spending another 200 dollars to go to a professional salon or self dye idk but i will make it red not the haley-rihanna red but at least i wanna see red when i'm in the sun and under the spotlight. I will personally pee on everything the hair salon-ist loves if my hair becomes brown again. I hate brown. It is main stream. I don't like it. I will take pink/blue dipdye but I will not have a house to come home to. So dark red will do it.

End Rant.

Tomorrow I will compromise and wake up at 12 (try to) and then go swimming over at the other pool because our pool had to go under reconstruction for i dont know what reason. Heard a man stepped on a nail which was coming up from the wood so they had all the wood around the pool changed. Well, you were born with eyes. USE THEM. You caused everyone to lose a pool for 2 months and it might not be important to you, but it might be to some others. Whatever. The new wood looks exactly the same, only darker. Anyway, sidetrack. Then about 3 I will drag Fe to vivo with me to buy seaweed and plug for my charger and then at 5 pray that the sun comes out and i will go jogging. And then come back watch ultimatum until 8 o clock then watch only you (sweet beautiful jesus kevin cheng has a 6 pack) and then 9 o clock watch the new felchin show and 10 o clock continue tumblr and no more.

3 weeks more to the start of school.
Honestly I can't wait cuz it's so boring at home.
But then I won't be able to sleep til 3 everyday.
But then I will be able to see aik how again.
So case closed.

I miss you :(

And today was the last episode of bountiful blessings. So sad my thomas died. I mean dafeng. And I did not watch 20 episodes to come to no conclusion/kiss scenes between dahai and fuxi. Sigh but overall it's a lame show but I like it. I like the 2 theme songs. skhjahfds did you see thomas ong's gorgeous eyes it's like kjhdfahkjkjhfjfkjhfdkjhfds i rmb during perfect cut when he cried, walao weh fdgkdshgkjfdkdgh his eyes are jussdkjfhkdghf.

Kbye.

2011-09-20T03:38:00.002+08:00

I want it bad girl baby bad.

Hahaha, I just spend like 2 hours watching videos on hairstyles
and I have one on right now it's called 'cute messy ponytail'
hahahahahaha although it looks so easy to achieve, it's not
and i tried the other braiding one, almost lost all my hair
and makeup tutorials seriously all the girls that do it
are so freaking beautiful and i sit here walloping in self pity
and i have so much to learn if i really wanna start makeup-ing
they even have names for the brushes and all the diff kind of eyeliner
and i sit there and go "hi rubberband 1, 2 and 3" and sometimes "hi comb"

anyway i should stop thinking so much
it's okay, tomorrow i will go swimming and then come back
pack my table and rearrange my room and cupboard and then
on wed i will go out and buy all shitties needed to decorate room further
and then thursday sit at home and admire my room and friday
get a new phone.

emperor, out.
♥ J

2011-09-04T05:26:00.004+08:00

Zanessa Appreciation Post 2k11

Was scrolling through tumblr when I saw a picture of zanessa. I do miss them. They were so perfect. I rmb the first time I heard vanessa's voice, lesbian crush in less than 1 sec. And then zac appeared and their chemistry on cam was so fucking sweet. And then in hsm2 zac sang the songs, and their voices harmonizes with each others' perfectly. It was like they were made for each other. And then hsm3, i died in the theatre when they did right here right now. And like as if I didn't die enough, they did can i have this dance. It's like no matter what they do, they just fit like a 2 piece puzzle, so simple but so sweet. They're the role models of love for me, what I think love should be like. Zac is always praising vanessa, about how sweet she is and how special she is. And despite that nude incident that van has, zac was still there for her. I always imagined what their babies will look like. Vanessa is like the perfect looking girl, and zac is the perfect looking guy. Their babies will win the beautifullest baby in the entire world, including renesmee. I always looked up to their relationship, cuz I have never heard of many celebrities relationships lasting over 5 years. Their relationship is everything I'd kill to have. Even though they're not together now, to me they will always be perfectly tied together :)

Once the interviewer asked zac, how many girls have he truly loved with his whole heart in his lifetime. Zac said one. And it was Vanessa.

2011-08-31T15:58:00.002+08:00

when you're gone, the pieces of my heart are missing you

happy birthday baby :)
thinking of you every single day
i hope it's nice where you are

2011-08-31T01:50:00.014+08:00

omg omg omg okay
I need to tell a beautiful love story.
hahaha cause i just finished the drama again

so once upon a time, belle and sam met

then she accidentally dropped her bracelet

so sam picked it up for her and gave it back

so she thought that he was so sexy and handsome
kidding, she thinks that she got fate with him cuz
he picked up her bracelet for her

and then they went seperate ways
but met again at a cafe at florence

so obviously she has a crush on him

and obviously he has a crush on her also

nabei his smile will kill me

and then they parted again but she gave him this card
to this tourist spot and she decided to see if they really have fate

and so she waited

and he appeared (duh)

she's so happy to see her sex god

then he smile smile smile but she walk away alr

so she purposely drop her bracelet again

and he picked it up

but cannot find her

sad belle is sad also

and then while he was taking photos for a group of people

le princess appeared

and they were forced to play the orange game

and then everyone was asking him to "pa sio"

but le sam dont know what is "pa sio" hahahaha

it means kiss in italian hahaha so cute
just when you thought the kiss between xc and xq was bad enough this kiss was even worse. da hell this is not even a kiss? but nvm

and then a fight broke out between the italians and
the guys dragged sam away in a car

sam hurry took out the bracelet to show her

and sad belle is sad again cause they drove off

but her eyes lit up (omg i really like doing story telling sia)
when she saw sam gor running back

and she grabbed his hand and ran

and reached the top again

and he wears the bracelet for her again

dskjhgfkjhagfdgfdgajfdklgjfd this is a real kiss

AND THEY LIVED HAPPILY EVER AFTER
THE END NO MORE YES IT SHOULD'VE STARTED
AND ENDED WITH EPISODE 1.

FOREVER THIS SHIP #BELLEANDSAM

impressive print screen skills righttttt
only half an episode but i print screened like 100 alr
Okay gonna leave this post here so that in case one day
i lose my memory i can come back and read a beautiful story
:)

2011-08-28T03:54:00.005+08:00

I went down down down and the flames got higher.

It's 4am in da morning and i'm about to not sleep.
I am going to. Watch. Ramona. And. Beezus.
Because I think Josh Duhamel is fuckin sexy.
Ahaha no cause I like to watch this kinda movies.
And I refuse to watch my Sam Gor like wth
I finished 31 episodes in 6 days, if I cont watching
what am I going to watch for the remaining days of my holiday
just kidding no matter when i finish, i will still rewatch and rewatch
until sam gor jumps out of the tv and kisses me like he kisses belle.
It's like the 5th time I rewatch this show in my entire life.

I ship myself with sam gor. Forever otp #1.

Aneeeeeewaiiiiiiiiii
NEW SAUBERT PIX THE WAY HE PUTS HIS HAND ON HIS CHEST

As much as I love saubert, I really hope they breakup soon
or at least before his second tour because if they don't
that means we won't get adommy kisses and if so
there would be no meaning to the band intro and fever
eh i sound so bad but idk how to solve this problem
can he just take two at one time like marry sauli and fuck tommy
awww yeah that's the perfect idea. k i approve.

eh by the way
all time low is coming to singapore.
words can't even describe my feelings.
Let's save it for another day.

oh and i miss you so bad.

2011-08-17T02:44:00.002+08:00

Get down on your knees and tell me you love me.

I finished rewatching my sam gor drama again.
That post-drama-depression i'm gonna get.
It's like, this drama was my whole childhood.
Sam gor will always be handsome and charming,
and he will always be shipped with belle.

The picture so high quality I can't take it.
But the point is, when they kiss, I can feel my ovaries explode.
Sam gor is fucking handsome and I have a lesbian crush on belle.
I will rewatch the whole 40 eps when my exams are over.
And laugh at how inferior sgpdramas are compared to hkdramas.

And here is living proof why I don't wanna live on this planet anymore.

2011-08-16T23:28:00.003+08:00

Checked in Checked out Checked mate.

It was an awesome birthday because
-my poly friends surprised me
-my mom dad and bro bought me a keyboard
-my mom brought me to colour my hair red
-my dad treated me to crab
-aunty called me in the mornin

It was like 7am in the mornin when she called
but i could figure out what she was talking but I swear
if she called like sometime in the afternoon, I woulda cried.

Anyway, I'm so happy with da red hair.
Gonna go tanning tmr and then continue studying.
Bless everyone who wished me a happy birthday.
Goodnight :)

2011-08-15T23:38:00.009+08:00

Be my sword my shield my missionaries in a foreign field.

Well today, crystal van ping and gisele surprised me!
I seriously thought crystal was gon study with me
so when she reached I was like "can i borrow your notes"
and she was like smiling all and "later i lend you la"
then i was like wat and she kept looking behind me
and van and gisele and ping appeared fkjghdakfj
I swear I was totally clueless, and speechless :)

Thank you god, for giving me amazing friends once again.
I wouldn't change them for anything in the world.

I remember when I was younger like 14 15 16
I'd use to look forward to my birthday but now
I can't even remember that my birthday is coming
But every year there's always special people here to celebrate for me
So I feel blessed and absolutely grateful that people even rmb my bday.

Happy birthday Kevin Cheng :)

2011-08-09T01:00:00.007+08:00

Time slow down, whenever you're around.

I keep seeing every single person in our IB class, 'cept you.
I haven't seen you in a really long time, and it's frustrating.
It's like nothing works without you

And when I touch your hand
It's then I understand
The beauty that's within
No matter where I go
I always feel you so

Teen choice awards today, well technically last night
Omygoddd my otp#2 sat together seriouslyyyyyyy

After all the back to december drama, they're finally seen tgt
do you know how happy i am, do ya do ya do ya

Have 4 upcoming tests, one on wed, two on thurs, one of fri
this battle I will win :)
Well I just think that, if you wanna do well
don't just use your mouth and bullshit about wanting high GPAs
and then when it comes to the test, you wanna complain and complain
and go around asking people not to study this and that with you
and then wanting to take shortcuts, not wanting to study stuffs
What's so hard about memorizing everything?
Just get it over and done with and stop complaining #honestly

And when I saw the newspaper like idk a few days/week/idkwhen ago
they said that ruien wins zoe in terms of viewership or smth
idkhowtoreadchinese but srsly

go cut yourself, article-writer.
whatever i love both zoe and ruien.

and today, you have finally spoken the truth.
finally you speak, what you have thought of me all along.
too bad i took your matches before fire could catch me so
don't look now cuz i'm shining like fireworks over your sad empty town.

2011-08-04T01:59:00.006+08:00

No matter what I do, I always forget to forget you.

1 week since I saw you. I miss your beautiful eyes.
I can sit here all day just replaying scenes of the past Wednesdays.
And you stood there in front of me just close enough to touch
Close enough to hope you couldn't see what I was thinking of

By the way, I was transferring stuffs to my phone jn and guess what
I almost went to the hospital. The similarity between keave and grant.

IS THIS EVEN LEGIT?

Anyway, I'm meeting ting on friday and sat :)
Time not alone is time spent not thinking of you.

2011-07-31T02:28:00.005+08:00

You are why I smile.

Tests over. Assignments done. You're still on my mind.
So many questions running through this head of mine.
Are you in love with anyone? Do I stand a chance?
What do you think when you see me? Who am I to you?
What would it be like on the first day of meeting the next sem?
Please don't be in love with someone else,
please don't have somebody waiting on you.

Anyway, new pictures of ADAMMMMMMM le sex god
annoying as fuck cuz there's no more kisses during fever
but he reads fanfiction guise! He does! skfhajkhgkfdjhgkfdl
He doesn't need to though, since he already knows
what's it like to break a bed with tommy rightttttt
I do not believe that they didn't fuck once during th tour
All that kissing/licking/hairpulling/touching/sexualthings
your argument is invalid.

2011-07-28T23:27:00.002+08:00

Okay you know what?

I have spent the entire day thinking about you
You know it's not like how I like keave, it's not like a
"omg there's keave he's so hot omg why am i so ugly" thing
It's like you're constantly on my mind, and you're driving me mad
And this is where you use those cliche lines like
"there's not a single minute where you're not running through my mind"
I have never experienced smth like that in my whole entire 17 years
Just when I thought my whole crush on keave was bad enough
It's like I want to be with you, I want to talk to you,
I wanna just sit beside you and stare right into your eyes
I don't know what the fuck you did to make me feel like this

LOW AIK HOW
I've fallen so deep I don't even know where the fuck I am
And this is so frustrating because I can't study for my test rn

But then all I want again, is you, just you.

2011-07-28T02:51:00.003+08:00

I'm caught up in you
and when you're close I feel like comin' undone.

I think I like him. I've been keepin it in for 2 weeks. Trust me, I don't wanna feel this way either, it sucks, but I can't help it. When you stare right into my eyes, I can't look away. When you talk and the smell of smoke is so strong, but I want it. When you're so nice, when you laugh, when you talk. Every single little thing. You know what sucks? Knowing that you'll never be good enough, knowing that you look like a tree trunk, knowing that you're not going to be worthy of anybody, knowing that nobody will ever like you.

It's like no matter what I do, I'll always be inferior.
All those talk about falling for your humour and heart?
They're bullshit.

2011-07-15T00:38:00.006+08:00

Nobody cares tonight, cause I'm all alone tonight.
So what's another night on my own?

I don't even know what kind of feeling is this.
What. da. hell.

I wish everyone in the world is happy right now.
I just truly wish that. Especially my friends.
I hope everyone's having fun.

& I pray vicky eats tmr which will confirm that she doesn't
have that stupid weird sickness the doctor's talking about just now.
You know I really cannot afford for anything to happen to her.
How do I explain how much she means to me.
If taking away like 30 years of my life can add lets say, 15 to hers,
I'd do it.

My new tattoo hurts alot. As in like the aftermath.
Hahaha aftermath. It's like I can't stretch my skin.

Anyway, new tommy photoshoot.
The walls of my room are filled with blood because my ovaries exploded.

Bonus:

Goodnight.

2011-07-11T00:49:00.000+08:00

This girl is my whole life.

2011-07-09T01:54:00.002+08:00

You have 3 groups of friends, you love all of them.

Somebody from group A pisses you off,
you run to group B and tell someone you are so pissed.

One week later, that person you told in group B pissed you off,
you run to group C and tell someone you are so pissed.

Another week later, the person you told in group C pissed you off,
you run back to group A and tell some you are so pissed.

Isn't this backstabbing/hypocrisy?
But then again you need to let your feelings out?
So under such circumstances you don't wanna back stab anyone,
but you really need to just say everything out, what do you do at all?
Don't tell me write it in a blog or diary or tell my dog or what shit.
Because you won't be doing that either please.

There, I'll leave you to think.
If you can find the answer, I'll be your slave for a day.

2011-07-05T23:37:00.002+08:00

Thanks for understanding me you guise.
And accommodating to my timing.
You guise r da best.

Why can't everyone just die?

2011-07-02T21:50:00.002+08:00

2011-06-27T21:32:00.004+08:00

I remembered when nobody cared, but you.

I've been thinking alot for the past few days, a lot.
Why are we always blind when we found someone new?
It's like after finding a new friend, you forget the old one.
I was like that 3 years ago.

Okay, I miss that friendship. That one where only now that I realise, that is the kind of friendship I'm longing for, the one I shouldn't have let go of. When I first met her in 2006, we got along really well. We did almost everything together. We walked from school to compass point most of the days of the week, especially after trainings. It was like I found my twin, she absolutely liked everything that I liked, and hated everything I hated. It was awesome and definitely not easy to find someone like that. I know she had another best friend outside, but to me I already treated her like a best friend. She was the one who's always there to share my joy, my sadness, my anger and probably everything else I felt at that point of time. When miss chia scolded me, she would fight back for me. When miss chia said I was fat, she would defend me and try so hard to boost my confidence level again. When others hated me for no reason, she would walk away and turn her back on them even though she was friends with them. She did so many things for me. After school, I would sometimes go to her house to put down our stuffs, and then head to training. During trainings she would cheer me on, even though I had like the littlest confidence in the entire world. She would try so hard to make me feel like I'm awesome, and she cares.

In 2007, things got even better. We were practically like sisters, and you wouldn't see me without her, or her without me in school. After home econs class, I would complain about meira, how she didn't wanna wash the plates and I had to do it, and I couldn't go for my hip runs, and she would be there to sit and listen, to curse and swear with me. And then we started having little fights. But here's the interesting part, our fights never lasted for more than 24 hours. She would know if I'm irritated with her, and she'd text me after school "hey are you angry with me, don't say no, because I know you are, but i'm really sorry, please don't be angry with me anymore!" and everything is solved. She can put a big smile on my face even though she pissed me off. Vice versa; when I piss her off, I'd do the same thing, and we'd be the best of friends again. That's probably one of the best parts of the whole friendship. Every deepavali she would invite me, and she discovered I love papudums. And then everything I'm sad or moody, she'd fry them for me. Everytime I wanted to cry, she'd be the first person I'd call. She would be there. She was always there. I remember when she left her wallet on the bus, and we'd run after the bus and take a cab to chase the bus and take the wallet back. And then we'd be late for training, and we would do punishments together. Even it was 200 push ups, it was always okay when she's there. During runs, she would jog alongside me, because I can't jog fast, and she would be there beside me, encouraging me. There are so many things we did together, if I were to list out everything, it would take a year.

2008, things started to change cause we were in diff classes. I fell in love with ruien. I could see that she was disappointed because I started neglecting her, and the only thing I could talk about when I'm with her now, is always ruien ruien and ruien. At that point of time, chasing after ruien was all I could think of. How stupid I was, really stupid. We sorta distant a little because I hung out with sec3 friends now, and with the fanclub friends. And at that point of time, I still can't see what I'm doing wrong. We still hung out together definitely, but it was different.

2009, that's when we broke off as best friends. I kept finding reasons to distant myself, giving excuses that she's hanging out with cassandra and other friends and that she doesn't want me anymore. But the fact is that I'm the one doing that. I was hanging out with the fanclub friends, and my sec3 classmates, and anything small, I'd use it against her. I kept seeing her with cassandra and her other friends, I thought she was in the wrong, so I used hung out even more with my other friends to spite her. I just couldn't see that I was the one who left her first, which is why she did the same. Til one time, I don't wanna talk about it, but it's probably 30% her fault, but 70% my fault, smth happened. We haven't talked in a long time. It's all my fault, I swear. But after awhile, she started talking to me again. I can't believe, I was such a bitch.

I can finally understand how she felt when I walked out on her. Because I went through that in 2010. To die without knowing why. To lose a friend and not know why. To know that someone left you because that someone found someone new.

I just wanna say that, i miss everything that we had, everything that we shared, all the trainings, chalets, camps and time spent together basically. Yes we may find laughter in other people, find happiness in someone else, but I will never forget her. She was the only one I truly knew inside out, like I have found another of myself. But I saw everything too late. I only realized it after everything has ended. I shouldn't have walked out on her, I shouldn't have gave up on that friendship. I read a tumblr post a few days ago. "Friends help you buy food, but best friends eat all your food." I miss when she ate my food, and when juniors stole our food and we would get pissed together, and when we talked about how we're going to live together when we grow old, how she cannot get a boyfriend if I haven't found one, how we have our photoshoots in mrt stations, and basically everything. I haven't been able to find a twin like her ever since.

The only one who can make me laugh til the point where I thought I was going to die. The only one who can understand me, and cared for me, and laughed with me, and the only one whom I can be completely honest with in a friendship. I'm tearing up rn, hahaha.

I've found that someone, but I gave that someone up so easily.
I don't think I'll find another like her,
but I'm blessed that she was once my best friend.
I will never forget this friendship.

I'm so glad you made time to see me
How's life? Tell me, how's your family?
I haven't seen them in a while
You've been good, busier than ever
We small talk, work and the weather
Your guard is up, and I know why
These days, I haven't been sleeping
Staying up, playing back myself leaving
When your birthday passed, and I didn't call
You gave me all your love, and all I gave you was goodbye

I'd go back and change it, but I can't
So if the chain is on your door, I'd understand
This is me swallowing my pride standing in front of you
saying I'm sorry for that night, and I'd go back to december
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missin you,
wishing that I realised what I had when you were mine
I'd go back to december turn around and make it alright,
I'd go back to december turn around and change me own mind,
I go back to december all the time.

2011-06-17T01:49:00.004+08:00

dsfjhkadjshgkdhgjdkfhgjfdghkfd

Adam, "You're probably not gonna find love in a dark city bar."
But he found Sauli in a bar.
Presenting : Adam Trollambert.

Anyway, just wanted to show you (idk who trololol)
the difference between tommy taking pictures with fangirls and fanguys

Sucks so much to be a girl.

2011-06-14T01:55:00.002+08:00

We are the world, we are the children.
Aha, but I still hate people.

I'm a happy person.
Because I have gained so many new followers.
Trololol because of the blg pictures I posted I guess.

Anyway
I went shopping with crystal today!
Spent so much money but it was worth it.
You will never understand my love for shopping though.

Michael's death anniversary is coming up,
I can't wait for the tributes on mtv :)

I miss so many people in my life.
I need to meet up with so many people,
but I just can't find the right time.

The way I blog today is funny.
It's like 2 or 3 lines. DFFDKJFDJHF whatever.

I love my ears. #justsayin

2011-06-12T02:15:00.002+08:00

For today, everything went better than expected.

I don't know, but the feeling will never be the same anymore.
It's like there's a scar there, and you don't wanna open up,
and then you're being left out, and then you're alone.

But it's okay, I pretty much gettit.

Keep calm and sing "the story of us".

2011-06-11T00:12:00.003+08:00

Today was beautiful.

Crystal Van Gisele and I went to the beach! Got burnt.
Like my whole body except my butt and breast area.
LORD BLESS MY NEXT WHOLE WEEK.

Need another tat soon, but I like the invisible one?
Whatever, I need the pain.

I'm still feeling extremely frustrated rn.
Lord God before you bless my next whole week,
bless my tomorrow k.

I really dk what the fuck I'm getting myself into.

2011-06-09T02:05:00.001+08:00

I'LL WRITE SOMETHING WHEN I FEEL SANE.

My head hurts.
I hope you die.
Goodnight.

2011-06-08T00:46:00.003+08:00

OKAY LET'S BE COMPLETELY HONEST

I was downloading all time low's dirty work
and one by one I "tested" the track and what I could tell myself was
"it's okay.. I will like the song soon.. that's what happens all the time anw."
So I downloaded the album.

And then Martin sang a new song in saltlakecity
and I decided to watch the video and omyfuckinggod
Tears everywhere. I fell in love with the song immediately.
It's like his one song beat the whole of dirty work.

Not saying I don't like all time low's songs,
but the power of martin's composing skills and his lyrics
even though alex sings better than him cmon lets be real
Martin still wins everything and that's because i'm biased.

That's just my opinion.
All time low's album is like HQ music all over and I'm hesitating to dl
but martin's new song is like from a video and it's of ballsack quality
but I downloaded it faster than lighting can strike you.

Much love for this man.

2011-06-07T23:18:00.005+08:00

SO FRUSTRATED RN.
Like I don't even know what I want.

Okay actually i do.
I would really really love to go for a jog right now
then go for a bath then wear nice clothes and go far east
pierce my ear and then go shopping from ion to 313 and buy many things
I wanna spend my money and if I can I would buy my keyboard rn

What the hell la okay what the hell.
Why must there be grouping for the sentosa shit
Why can't we just do whatever we want, just do your own shit
exactly like the last time we went to sentosa like that
Why cannot like that. i wanna fucking pull out rn
But i'll be the biggest bitch in the entire world

Don't even know why I signed up in the first place.
"Holding my breath, something keeps me holding onto nothing"

FUCKKJDSKHASFFDSAHPFSDAJLHFDSAJHKFDS
I will actually explode rn if somebody don't talk to me soon.
SOMEBODY WHERE ARE YOU GO SHOPPING WITH ME

D':

2011-06-06T23:56:00.003+08:00

OMYGOD KRISTEN AND ROBERT WERE SO CUTE!
SORRY BUT FANGURL_93 MOMENT

Knew it, they won't kiss la.
But when rob said "I'm going to take you backstage"
jfhskjdgfklSD;FHjdkslhfkfdskjhfdshkjfdshkjfdshkjfdshkjfds

Haven't watched twilight in a long time I guess.
Everytime they do something sweet, my ovaries literally explode.

AND THE BREAKING DAWN TRAILER.
OMYGOD FUQU NOVEMBER 18, YOU PROLONG OUR PAIN
When edward broke the bed after having sex with bella,
and the pregnant part and the kissing part in the water
honestly I can't wait for the part where she cries and then
begs edward for sex and they do it for a second time asdfghjkl

And trolololol harry potter fans, stop shooting twilight k
Twilight is from america obv mtv movie awards would let them win it
Wait for your uk awards or something, stop saying twilight is bad or what
Bringing twilight down/talking shit about it wont change the fact they won
It's your opinion really so if you think harry potter is better
then dont watch the mtv movie awards, and once again,
just shut the fuck up and sit the fuck down.

2011-06-06T00:11:00.003+08:00

Honesty is honestly the hardest thing for me right now.

That's the problem.
I know it's a mistake. It happened. I ran.
But I stopped. I turned back because you called me.
And now I know I'm falling deeper, but I refuse to move.

One day it'll be my turn to say,
"I'll look back in regret how I ignored when they said run as fast as you can."

Move on, stupid girl.

I will pierce my ear again. 2 more holes.
I will find out how to pierce my lip and not get caught.
How I wish I can get another tattoo, rn.
Idk, anything that takes away this pain.

The walls we built together are tumblin
and I still stand here holding up the roof.

2011-06-01T01:08:00.003+08:00

I'm starting to feel like I'm not important to you anymore.

This is probably the feeling that I hate most in the entire world.
And then I'd have to ask myself over and over again,
Where did I go wrong?

For now, I'm really so tired.
God bless me a good night's sleep.

2011-05-30T00:23:00.005+08:00

How do I put this in a way such that it won't sound like I hate you?
Because I don't, in fact I love you, but I'm disappointed in you.
If you ever read this, which I hope you won't, please don't get mad.

It's like, you promised us that you won't neglect us after getting with him.
You said nothing will change, that we'll continue just like the first semester.
In fact when you were with brandon, nothing changed.
And then it ended, we sorta like went out so much.
And then he happened.

Now everything's changed.
I don't know if we're being sensitive fucks here or what, but really.

And that is what I hate.
Letting things ruin the friendship when they're not even supposed to.
Now we're sorta like second to you, it's always

Us: Hey you wanna go out next week?
You: Yeah okay we go shopping!!!
(Next week)
Us: You free today? Wanna go out? Or you meeting your bb?
You: Yeah but nevermind I can go out with yall first.

Like idk that don't even make sense but you get my drive?
Like we're supposed to hang out til late and then there he goes again.
Like why? Idk maybe it's because I don't have a bf, and I can't feel you.
But aiya idk.

This week. We've been trying to reach you, to do proj.
Not even shopping. We remind you so many times abt the elearning.
You spent the whole week with him? Really the whole week?
I mean even my bf was adam and I get to fuck him everytime i see him,
I won't wanna see him everyday. Really? Everyday?

All I can say is, I just hope that if, anything goes wrong and you're "back",
just don't promise us that we're your priority even if you have a bf, again.
Because in our pov, you're breaking that promise w/o knowing it.

ANYWAY

I cried today. This sounds like the dumbest shit but really, I cried.
I watched the "fever" performance of adam in russia, legit tears bro.
I really didn't know that I'd cry, what fuckery ikr.
Do you know what adam is supposed to do after singing the line
"Would you be m-mine?"

This.

But in russia, after singing that line where was he?

LOOK AT HOW FUCKING FAR TOMMY IS FROM ADAM.
JUST BECAUSE YOU HAVE A BOYFRIEND, =/= YOU CAN'T KISS HIM.
AND IF IT WAS BECAUSE SAULI DISAPPROVE,
THEN SAULI, PLEASE DISAPPROVE YOURSELF.

Fuck you sauli. You are handsome. Yes you love adam.
But please share. Half the world is prolly crying rn because
THERE'S NO MORE ADOMMY.

2011-05-26T22:10:00.003+08:00

ADAM LAMBERT HAS A HICKEY.
HAHAHAHA SAULI YOU DID IT! YOU DID IT!

YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS.

Omygod all that is in my head now is pictures of them having sex.

2011-05-25T22:17:00.003+08:00

I don't know what to say since a twist of fate since we're going down.

I have like 5 gabillion shit to do.
So many elearning shit, and so many quizzes.
We barely started school for like how long, and a quiz?!
Really bitch really?! I don't even know what is the title of chapter 1.
And to add on, I'm losing followers on tumblr like a fuckin boss.
Within 1 week, I lost 3 followers. What are yall, homophobes?
And to top that, idk why recently I can't sing.
After I fell sick and now i'm well again,
my voice sounds like a crow.
I feel so frustrated.

Singing is prolly the only way I can get it all out when I feel like shit.
And now I can't even sing. What am I supposed to do now?
Buy candy or sit on a carousel? Fucking bitch.

And I saw keave today.
Again.

I wish I can write songs like taylor, write everything out.
But no. When I write and compose a song, the next morning when I sing it,
it sounds worse than a nursery rhyme.

CAN YOU TELL I'M FUCKING FRUSTRATED?
And tired.

2011-05-22T01:47:00.002+08:00

OMYGOD.

I HAVE THE DIRTIEST THOUGHTS IN THE ENTIRE WORLD, RN.

Imagine adam dominating him in bed.
SDKJFHASGHFSALKHGFADSKJGFH
DO IT ANYWAY~

2011-05-21T16:55:00.003+08:00

Rolling in the deep - Haley Reinhart

It annoys me to see that people can't see that people will have different opinions. Da fuck? Certain people would prefer lauren's voice, some others would prefer haley's voice, and the rest will prefer scotty's voice. Get the fuck over it. If you like haley, so be it. If you like lauren, good for you. If you like scotty, fine. Just don't go around bashing other's idols. Yall stupid bitches. Everyone has different views, so you can't expect the whole world to agree with you. Get over yourselves bitches. Childish ass shit all over youtube. Lauren and Haley and Scotty all score in different areas. So shut the fuck up and calm the fuck down. I didn't bash kris allen when he won adam. Well technically I wasn't really watching AIS8 at that time, but you get my drive. So chill the fuck out. If you love haley so much, why didn't you get yo poor ass votin for her? So now that lauren and scotty are in the finals, accept it. If you're not gonna watch it because you don't like them, then go sit in the corner. Don't have to spam twitter and tumblr about your opinions. Don't go round preaching. You're making a fool of yourself.

/END RANT.
I'll continue on AI next week after results show.

Thank you for reading my spam, here's a funny macro for you.

Same for this shit.
If you prefer tommy over sauli with adam, so be it.
Sauli is adam's boyfriend and tommy will never be with adam.
Ships are cool, but don't go overboard.

I prefer adommy but did I bash sauli? No.
So shut up bitch.
#adam'sboyfriendsappreciationpost

2011-05-20T01:10:00.003+08:00

Next chapter.

REALLY ADAM, REALLY?

Please fuck me, right now.

I wanted to blog so bad in school today but I didn't bring my laptop. And I said I would type it when I get home. But no. I have clean forgotten everything I wanted to write. But, it was something along the line of.. stop kicking a big fuss out of everything. Most of the time, people blow small shit up into big shit, when the small shit can be buried and forgotten about. Everytime you get pissed with someone, just remember the other 999 good things that s/he did. Stop harping over that one small shit s/he did wrong. Is it really worth sacrificing the whole friendship just for that small shit? Over the other 999 good shit? If you think so, I must say you're fucking childish, sorry that i'm fucking judgemental. But just think. Good friends don't come by like sushi on a conveyor belt. (What a fucking comparison?) But you know. Just learn to cherish okay? Why you wanna wait til' that person is gone and then you realise that it's too late to apologize. Sometimes, you can just swallow your fuckin pride and move on. And btw when I apologize, it does not mean I think I'm in the wrong. It's just that I think this small shit is not worth sacrificing the whole friendship. So just shut up and give in once in awhile. Doesn't mean when people apologize to you, they're fucking pushovers. Take three steps back and examine yourself. Please know that there's a limit to a person's tolerance. It doesn't mean that i'll continue apologizing because I apologize once. K? /End rant.

Now you can bless this post.

The end.

2011-05-19T01:36:00.004+08:00

I feel like dancin' tonight.

Is it angle problem or he looks so much bigger than sauli?
But whatever, teacher said gay guys go for guys who are smaller build.
THAT EXPLAINS TOMMY.

AHA i just heard your ovaries explode.
It's okay to admit it, I'm not judging you.

Night!

OH RIGHT RIGHT BEFORE I GO
I FORGOT TO TELL .. YOU ..
I SAW BUS BOY TODAY. WHEN HE WALKED INTO MAKAN PLACE,
THIS PRETTY MUCH HAPPENED.

2011-05-17T23:40:00.002+08:00

Wondering why we bother with love, if it never lasts.

I have this uh what do they call it? Writer's block?
Yeah I'll write when I have something to write about.
Meanwhile, you have some adommy. Good luck to your ovaries.

Why can't they just fuck on stage already?
I'd pay $500 for their sex tape, depending on the duration.
Gays are so attractive, much more attractive than a normal couple.
Normal couples are so mainstream.

2011-05-16T01:29:00.008+08:00

Everything is #Adommy and nothing hurts.
Omygod just look at that kitty asdfghjk
Tommy, I'll meet you in my bed

& more saubert <3

You are being eye fucked by adam.

& YOU ARE NOW PREGNANT

Congratulations !
However your baby will be ugly and damned
because the other parent is not tommy.

2011-05-15T03:12:00.004+08:00

ADAM + SAULI ♥

New pictures!

Imagine them holdings hands and making out. sadfghjkgfdshkjgfd

2011-05-14T01:42:00.003+08:00

KEAVE

is that gorgeous guy in the middle.

How can someone even look so handsome while holding popcorn?
Mindfuck.

Ps, blogger deleted my adommy post.
You fucking homophobic blogger.
I'll spam my whole adommy folder tmr.
You watch out.

2011-05-12T00:30:00.004+08:00

When we're bored at 1230am.

2011-05-11T02:10:00.000+08:00

It's a love story ♡

2011-05-10T02:31:00.000+08:00

U JELLY?

2011-05-08T21:53:00.012+08:00

Presenting ..

KEAVE.

2011-05-08T04:03:00.000+08:00

TOMMY

YOU ME BED NOW.

2011-05-07T01:12:00.003+08:00

Buqun: You didn’t come back just to stare at me and not say a word, did you?

Yuhang: (Hands him the jar of ribbons he made for her)

Buqun: What does this means?

Yuhang: You’re asking the obvious.

Buqun: No, I just want to hear you say it.

(Puts the jar on the floor)

Yuhang: What are you doing?

Buqun: How can I hug you unless I put it down?

(Hugs)

Buqun: I’ve proven once again that miracles can happen if we don’t give up.

2011-05-03T02:42:00.002+08:00

WA, if I could have a mini concert, with people who really care.

Le setlist :

Love Drunk
Heart Heart Heart Break
Time Bomb
Thunder + Go Medley
Sparks Fly
Mine
Better Than Revenge
Story Of Us
Teardrops On My Guitar
Forever & Always + Haunted Medley
Speak Now
Should've Said No
Picture To Burn
Back To December + You're Not Sorry Medley
Dear John
Enchanted
Fifteen
The Way I Loved You
Love Story
You Belong With Me
Long Live
The Great Escape

WA, this is probably the fastest way to lose your voice.

2011-05-01T22:32:00.003+08:00

And I feel you forget me like I used to feel you breathe.
Well I hope it's nice where you are.

So I'll go sit on the floor
All that I know is I don't know how to be something you miss.

Because that should be me.
I guess I won't see you again?
But something keeps me holding onto nothing.

2011-04-30T23:13:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GRANT MICKELSON!

You're sexy as fuck.

And
I talked to ruien on the phone thanks to xaby :)
Thank you xaby! Really short but I appreciate it.
I just miss her so much you dek, people, you dek.

2011-04-30T02:07:00.003+08:00

I SAW KEAVE TODAY, AGAIN.

I am now officially a stalker on facebook. I never thought I'd actually do this kinda thing but, I can't help it. Not stalking actually. Like tumblr said, I would prefer to call it, extensive research on an individual. Whatever.

About my piercing, I feel like buying the barbell, possibly the thinnest one I can find, and shove it through the hole. Because industrial piercings, are supposed to be done like two at one time, but I did it the other way. So it's either I expand the earhole, or just shove it through. I don't know. But I want it. Either way.

~~Tomorrow~~ today will be a good day. I hope.
As in ya you geddit now it's 2:18 and like i meant tmr,
but it's legit today already but omygod fuck you just,
Bye/

2011-04-26T22:20:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TING!

I love you so damn much :)

2011-04-25T22:42:00.002+08:00

It was enchanting to meet you.

It's okay, I shouldn't be sad.
I was never in the circle right from the start.

Hope you'll have fun with them on saturday.
Imma work.

2011-04-25T00:13:00.002+08:00

Rui En. Omygod, where do I start? It is absolutely mindblowing to see you win the Best Actress Award today. I have honestly, never felt so happy for so long. It’s your first nomination, and you grabbed the title so easily. To see you slowly grow in the industry, from such a small star, to best actress omygod! When they announced your name today, I felt like the proudest mother in the entire world. I never stopped screaming, I stood on the chair, I jumped like I was on a motherfucking trampoline, and even though I was the only one who stood on the chair (I think) and entirely embarass myself, it was worth it. I can swear I screamed for such a long time until my vision became all white. The last time this happened to me, was at adam lambert’s concert, I literally almost fell off the chair, but I continued screaming. It was like that. Tears fell. To witness you win that award, all the hard work you put in, that is the fruit of your labour. I am so glad that I can be there to witness everything, that look on your face when your name is called out. I live for that look on your face. Since 2007, episode 13 of “Metamorphosis” on tv, I fell in love with you. Waiting one year to see you in 2008, and then you finally remembered me as “the crazy fan”. It was all worth it. You have no idea how proud I am of being your crazy fan. And then at your birthday party you chose me and xabryna to act out because you know we were losing, I live for that. When you told me you read my blog and sent me a birthday card, I live for that. Although I haven’t seen you for one year, today was good enough, to see you go on stage to take the biggest award of the entire award show. You might’ve forgotten me already, but I will never forget you. You will always be the one and only singapore artiste, that captured my heart, right from the start. Crazy shit might have got to me, but you know behind all the shit, you’re still right there. I hope I can see you soon, you have no idea how much I wanna hug you rn. Congratulations, I love you so much :)

2011-04-24T01:19:00.002+08:00

I bet she's beautiful, that girl he talks about,
and she's got everything that I have to live without.

Like literally everytime I see a couple picture,
I would think, "We would look so cute if that were us."

WHAT IS HAPPENING TO ME, WHAT IS THIS FUCKERY?

Big day tomorrow. Goodnight.

2011-04-23T02:48:00.001+08:00

You look beautiful.

I can't take my mind off of you.

Sometimes I just wish you knew.

Dear God, help me.

2011-04-21T22:41:00.003+08:00

And just like clockwork, he would appear.
With his girlfriend.

I saw keave AGAIN today well I didn't really expected it. We just walked into makan place and right at that moment, I saw a guy that looked like him from the side. I told myself no, that wasn't him. I was probably seeing things. When we sat down, geraldine silent screamed, "Joey I'm not kidding this time! " I turned and he sat down right next to our table. I was lost for words, so much was running through my mind. And then he stood up, I thought he was gonna come over and talk to geraldine, and I could at least look a little more. And then he walked and open the door, and in came, his girlfriend.

I have never liked someone like that before.
To the extent that when I see you, I hate myself.
But then again, it's like a drug to see you.
3 times in 4 days, first week of school.

Basically, I fake a smile so nobody can see.